Overwhelmed

This is not a post about being overwhelmed with my role as a mother of two. Well....because frankly while I am overwhelmed at times I definitely feel like things are much easier this time around. He is a happy baby, sleeps pretty good and loves to eat. I have no complaints....really.

Then what am I overwhelmed with? I would have to say my love for him. When I was pregnant I would rub my belly as he moved around and I would wonder if it was at all possible to love him as much as I loved Kameron. How could I seriously love him that much? Was it really possible? Yes....yes it is.

There are times during the day that I am completely overwhelmed with how much I love him; no more than I love Kameron but equally. I love when he looks at me when he is nursing; sure he may not be able to really "see" me but he is looking in my direction. I love when he falls asleep on my chest. I absolutely love to see him and Kameron together; talk about my heart overflowing with love.

Today during church I was completely overwhelmed. During worship with the love of the Lord covering me and my son cradled in my arms, I truly felt as if my heart would explode. All I could do was to thank God for his love and his blessing in my life; all I could do was stare at my son with love as tears filled my eyes. I was so completely overwhelmed with how great my life is. I still can't believe that I am a mother of two, I can't believe that Landon is actually here and I can't believe that he is actually mine. Sure I have rough days but I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. I never knew I could feel so complete.